useless rant

i am not satisfied with the answer 'everything is god's plan'. that's an excuse to everything. if i get one million dollars this morning, that's god's plan. if i bang my head into the wall now and get stitched on my head, that's also god's plan. if i eat too much junk food and later become morbidly obese with several cardiovascular diseases, that's also god's plan. becoming morbidly obese is a god's plan, wow. spiritually speaking, i don't grasp this concept very well. i do believe god exists though, unlike some close minded assumption that people like me are always an atheist (again, what do religious people have against atheists?) there must be a great designer for everything in this universe. it is only i have different views over this creator. for me, this creator is a lot like programmer, the creator's motto is everything happens for a reason. it's a causality. the creator creates complex programming language that includes scientific laws and human free will inside. so the understanding of god's plan is quite different in my mind. god's plan is everything happens for a reason naturally, so there is no such thing as fate. famine and world hunger is the result of former action of nature, so do disasters. there are no such thing as miracle. it is just a sequence of actions and reactions from you, people around you, people everywhere, or anything that results in something you really like. vice versa for bad luck. it's indeed god's plan that i'm morbidly obese from eating so much junkfood, but don't blame god! spiritually speaking, it's our choices that moves god's plan. everything has its consequence. spiritually speaking, i think people's life span are also in God's plan, god gives choices: which life do you want to live? the life that ends after 50 years, 70 years, or anything you like? bah, all these nonsense talking gives me headache.