spiritually speaking...

spiritually speaking is a very popular line among the question askers in yahoo answer. they go like "spiritually speaking,..." then ask something unrelated in religion and spirituality section. i find it funny and offensive in some way. although i mostly answer questions in science and mathematics section (it's a section where best answer is the easiest to earned) my top favorite is religion and spirituality section. it provides cheap and good laughs instantly. sometimes also enlightening.
i have to confess that the r&s section has influenced my views over those kind of things. i had never been a religious person before. i think i would never be. I'm just made not to be religious, if religiosity (is this even a word?!) was ever made to be a genetic traits. I'm just more practical and logical, and also skeptical. my community has never been a heterogenized one, so r&s section is a new thing for me. I've never seen so many believers and non-believers mixed in one place.
i already had a lot of doubts over my i.d. card religion ( i can list a HUNDRED things i doubt ), but i never dare to question about it. i never dare! after i landed in some sort of la-la-land called yahoo answer r&s section, i had to admit that i doubted my belief, indeed. the more i ask, the more questions were created. spiritually speaking, I'm really tired. i want to explore. why can't i explore? i do a lot of thinking. i just found out that I'm not religious, thank you brain.
in the eyes of believers, i am really really lost, possessed by evil spirit, and badly influenced by r&s section.what am i supposed to do if i have a question? research it, right? prove it. my skeptical scientific mind refuses to JUST BELIEVE. my motto is 'prove it'.
i just want to have freedom to define my spirituality. how could religious people be so sure that their religious view are right? faith? what is faith? is it for real or is it just an euphoria? how could i know an answer for a thing for sure if there is no proof? religion is man-made, so spiritually speaking it is...man made. prove it. it is indeed. there is no proof that God exists, there is also no proof that God exists. but i think God exists and i have strong logical proofs for this argument, not from some old tales. i am exploring. where do died people go? are the things inside some book that written thousands of years ago for real or they're no different to nostradamus' prophecy? we can't know for sure. we can't know for sure until we prove it.
spiritually speaking, i'm still exploring! i love this freedom!